Suicide Season

This is just a reminder that we are now in the suicide season.  Thoughts of suicide increase between the months of November and February, with the highest increase occurring in the month of December.  With increase thoughts comes increased pain.  An intense pain that is often hidden by a smile.

The cause of this increase is often an overwhelming feeling of being alone, rejected, and unloved.  Even if the person is surrounded by people, these emotions can still wrap themselves around someone, engulf them completely before consuming them quickly.

It is nothing that anyone has done personally.  These emotions are in the air because everyone is expected to be surrounded by family, but not everyone has family in their lives.  Thoughts of missing people begin to fill the air, and these are the emotions that cling to those of us sensitive to them.

There is something everyone can do to help ease the pain, even if for a few moments.  Tell someone that you love them.  There does not have to be a reason, just that you love them.  Do not expect a reply, just speak the words, and genially mean them.

You never know, your words could be the lifeline they use to keep from drowning in the dark emotions, and turning thoughts of suicide into actions of.

My Storm

There’s a storm brewing.  It hits every year at the same time and there’s nothing I can do to stop it.

It will hit with all the strength and furry any God could muster.  It will consume and utterly destroy me, drawing me into the depths of its darkest emotions.

The closer it approaches, the darker the sky will become, until no light can escape its grasp.

There is no eye to this storm, no calm whatsoever.  So when it hits it’s at full force, with nothing to slow it down.

When the storm finally leaves I will be left on the ground, my body completely shattered.  I will slowly recover, in time for the next storm.

But you will never see the destruction for it resides deep inside my soul.

There's a Storm Overhead

There’s a storm sitting over me right now. The sky is dark, the air is chilled, charged with static, looking for a spark to ignite it. The flashes of lightning are contained as there is no thunder; yet.

I am fighting this storm, not wanting to let it rage, but it is very tiresome to do so. It came out of nowhere, without warning, and I do not know how long it will last. I have to weather this storm and pick up the pieces after.

I know that it’s no one’s fault, not even my own, this I have always known, however, that does not make it any easier to cope with. My emotions are a mirror, reflecting the world around me, my soul as dark as the sky.

In the darkness many things can hide, none I would consider an alley. Destruction, chaos, madness, loneliness, and fear all live within the storm. They wish to come out and play.

Please bear with me as I wait for this storm to pass.

FREE HUGS

I have started a campaign, FREE HUGS for Mental Health awareness. I have buttons, key chains, and soon, shirts with the same FREE HUGS picture. The FREE HUGS lets people know that I will give anyone a hug who may need one, nothing needs to be said; you don’t even have to ask, just hug the hurt away. Hugs is how we recharge and heal.

FREE HUGS has been around for a while, it is sometimes joked about but I’m trying to turn it into something very serious. You never know when a hug can save a life, as I personally found out. One day while I was downtown taking pictures I seen a man who I could feel needed a hug, so I hugged him, without asking or saying anything, and he, much to my surprise, hugged me back, long and hard. I could feel the negative energy draining out of him. I was not going to let go until he let go.

When he did finally did let go he walked away without a word and I continued taking pictures. Two years later I seen the same man, who gave me a hug this time and thanked me. It turns out that he was planning to commit suicide that day and my hug let him know that he was not alone, that a total stranger cares. That got me right in the feels.

So now I try to raise awareness for Mental Health issues, letting people know that they are not alone by any means. I myself have bipolar and depression, as does my daughter. We are tired of hiding from the fear that comes from the stigma of not understanding what someone with Mental Health issues goes through.

We try to bridge the gap between those who have it and those who do not. Not everyone can express how they feel inside, and for that they feel lost, even myself from time to time.

This website, Lost Inside, is dedicated to those who wish to express themselves but can’t. For those who have not found the courage to know, you can find it here. To search no longer for the words you need to survive the great battle within.

My goal is to heal the world through laughter and always, FREE HUGS.

I am doing a walk this October for Mental Health awareness. By bringing light to the subject and letting others know that they truly are not alone we can save lives. Please copy and paste, email, or share this with anyone you know who has Mental Health issues. If you would like one a button, key chain, or sticker please email me, writingwithpower@gmail.com

 

The Walk: https://my.reason2race.com/LostInside/LostInside-TheWalkHouston2017

My Facebook Page: https://www.facebook.com/Lost-Inside-676652619152002

 

Leaving

 

Your soul doesn't need me,
As it once did.
Your healing is
Nearly complete.

 

I'm so proud of you,
Standing tall,
Strong,
On your own two feet.

 

You are amazing,
Soon you won't need me at all.
Never more,
Will you fall.

My Why

I was asked why do I try to raise awareness for those with mental health issues by giving free hugs.  My answer to giving away free hugs is because you never know when a hug may save a life, which is true, but I was pressed for a more deeper answer.

So, why do I do it?  Because too many people do not understand what it is we go through, even ourselves.  We are afraid to tell anyone how we feel because once we do our feelings becomes real. As long as we keep it locked away inside we can continue to lie to ourselves and say that everything is fine.
We are afraid of being looked at differently, like an animal in a zoo, locked away because someone uses a word they truly don't understand, like crazy.
Because there are those trapped inside themselves and do not know how to escape.  I know, I am one of those people.  By raising awareness perhaps there is a chance that we can just live.

Darkness Within

My Beast

Certified

Drowning

I'm Home

Darkest Desires

Music

My Demon Wants Out

In Pain

Whispering

Penny

 

 

Mirror

What Would You Do Wallpaper

What Would You Do?

What would you do if you found out you were sick, of which there is no cure?
Would you tell your family or carry the burden alone?  By remaining silent would you not spare them the stress of knowing they are going to lose you?  Would you not want them to live life as they have been, enjoying what little time you have or would you be treated differently because they know what is to come?
By that point, would you live your life differently or would you continue on until you could go no further?  Would you take risk you never would have before?  Would you live your life or a life you never knew?
Honestly, what would you do?