Hating the World

 

Those dark thoughts, those harsh emotions, they can break a person down.  It is a fight to continue forward.  To keep going takes a strength that drains our soul.

Succumbing to the Night

 

My demons

I can no longer fight.

I've given up,

Succumbed to the night.

 

I belong to them,

They are in control.

I have lost.

I have no soul.

 

This is what it feels like when the darkness surrounds us, embraces us, consumes us whole.

Fake Smile

 

Most people do not want to see someone who is hurting or in pain... so we fake a smile to make them feel better about themselves.  The pain is still very much real and does not go away.  You can see it in our eyes, if you would only just look.

Dying Alone

I've never been afraid of death. More times than not I actually welcome it.  What scares me the most is dying while being alone.

Eyes

Her eyes became the death of me,

for when I looked into them

I fell in a love that can never be.

 

Sometimes you can fall so madly in love with someone, that when they are gone, so are you.

Broken

 

Why am I broken and so worthless?

 

 

Often times, no matter what some one tells us or how good things are going, when we crash, we crash hard and this is how we see ourselves, broken.

Living with Anxiety

I'm not afraid of Death... its living that scares the shit out of me.

 

Where most people have a fear of death, those who are suffering through Anxiety are afraid of living. Things that you see as normal scare the ever loving shit out of us. The fight becomes even harder because we know we have to keep moving forward, slowly, one inch at a time, but we do move forward.

Suicide Season

This is just a reminder that we are now in the suicide season.  Thoughts of suicide increase between the months of November and February, with the highest increase occurring in the month of December.  With increase thoughts comes increased pain.  An intense pain that is often hidden by a smile.

The cause of this increase is often an overwhelming feeling of being alone, rejected, and unloved.  Even if the person is surrounded by people, these emotions can still wrap themselves around someone, engulf them completely before consuming them quickly.

It is nothing that anyone has done personally.  These emotions are in the air because everyone is expected to be surrounded by family, but not everyone has family in their lives.  Thoughts of missing people begin to fill the air, and these are the emotions that cling to those of us sensitive to them.

There is something everyone can do to help ease the pain, even if for a few moments.  Tell someone that you love them.  There does not have to be a reason, just that you love them.  Do not expect a reply, just speak the words, and genially mean them.

You never know, your words could be the lifeline they use to keep from drowning in the dark emotions, and turning thoughts of suicide into actions of.